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a cassette tape of unconscious dreams

YUN-FEI WANG
side a: is this your dream or is this mine?
i peeled off my skin, dipped in a river, knighted
after the glisten of your name, a shade of blue
unraveled my bones, carved the ridges of your face
into the ashy bones, i convince myself i’m dreaming

from hollowness, where my heart should’ve been.
three summers ago you heeled over my ruins
taken aback by your eyes, dark glass, reflecting off
forgotten cities an hour before apocalyptic dawn

vinyls scratched for hymns, crept onto veins, bloomed
sugar-coated whispers, like the guitar you’d strung
against my waist, so deep your nails painted scars on me
so soft, music almost sang of the name carved into my cheek

burning in the cold, engraving your lips into words
i write about your galaxies but i’m afraid of moonlight
knowing its beauty would suffocate, like you did to me.
one of these nights, city dreams of a misty hilltop

sacred lands, roses and violets in the wind, i am but
a ragged blanket, back of wooden shelves, some nights
there is a way to live again, without ripping at the seams
but to breathe, tortured, strumming these broken strings

a sunset of colorless wishes, folded into paper planes
you intoxicated me without ever touching my wounds. 
the highest life, ended in our nightmares, and i think
you understand now, why i had to leave.
side b: is this my dream or is this yours?
dim lights, tables inked with strangers’ names
bleeding stories, this time there’s no metaphor
but i wonder if you’ll find yours, scratched with nails
a religious death, the table i used to sit at

dented chairs, an arrangement that never changed
i dream of the things you have forgotten about.
seats repainted but the scorches were screaming memories
the day when yours became an empty space

the chalkboard cryptograms, your wrists replaced time
and a rhythmic clock that had stopped, three years ago
i anagramed your code, absence of our ghastly fingerprints
but i swear, that night, the sky was raining red chalk

open windows, where our gazes used to intertwine
far horizons, the world outside paralyzed in time
what changed? tell me it’s my fault, anything
for you to speak to me beyond black crystalline eyes

i sat down in your seat, haunted, pretending it doesn’t hurt
breathing through the air your lips once touched.
you gave me too much to remember, you know?
years later, the same classroom, the same slippery lies

falling for you has always been a form of sacrifice.
and in your seat i finally saw, snapshots of your narrative
what you had believed in for years, and i think
i understand now, why you had to leave.
Yun-Fei Wang. The 2am writer that lives in the mind of sixteen-year-old Yun-Fei Wang has been taking over her sanity for a few years now, tearing her lifeline down, yet building up an escapism in the same breath. Find her in the evanescence of black-inked words, or at @rainofelsewhere on Instagram.
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