This Bitch
JOMAR DANIEL ISIP
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Played it like a player, suave, surefooted, sure could have, should have
maybe said a little less. Hell. All that matters is you got what you got, what you wanted. Sure. What you want? An assurance, insurance he’s who he said, who you said he was, who you said he could be, should be, maybe. We all have needs. Go get you yours. Hell It’s rigged, the game, the goddamn game. Hate the player and the game! Go get you your friends, the ones who knew better, knew they couldn’t stop you. We got needs. Sure. All that matters, they tell you to take care of you, let yourself feel and forgive yourself, forget about Hell. There you go. Suave, surefooted, sure should have listened to us Next time and next time and next time. Knock knock. This bitch. |
A Fool According to His Folly
JOMAR DANIEL ISIP
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New rule: Never bring up Star Wars with grown men.
Know better. Disengage. Embrace the shame, the mud, the pig is enjoying it. She’s a Mary Sue, and look at you: Is not! Is too! New rule: Never introduce your crush to your lover. If either gets jealous, or both, you win. Except when you don’t. Know better. Out of your hand, birds of a feather, back to the bush. New rule: It’s never only one episode of Schitt’s Creek. Sun setting. They’re very short. Rationalize sun rising, the dogs have circled the door twice, a thing begun—they couldn’t hold it—half done. New rule: She’s only saying she wants your advice. Rationalize this time, in spite of instinct, she won’t root, scratch, dig up grubs. And look! The last, or next-to-last pearl is rolling in the slop. Is not! Is too. |
Merci, Paris
JOMAR DANIEL ISIP
For Shon
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When the steeple finally gave, a thought, she is too far gone
Notre Dame might come down whole, the flames glowing from within the cathedral, a demon heart pulsing under her gothic glory crumbling into ash. You send the picture. We are twentyish, poor, sure. Paris our backdrop. Sure, we argued every friendship has some friction. Besides, remember tripping on the steps in front of all the saints and tourists, laughing, the exquisite satisfaction of having arrived? We did it. We did. Before barren streets, a Parisian baritone from his balcony accepts the applause of neighbors, enchanted, bored, trapped trying to remember if song, spontaneous music happened in moments just months ago, the antebellum fading. We are fortyish, comfortable, not. A pandemic. We haven’t talked, not that we could. I moved, maybe on. You divorced. Jeff was there with us. Said the pigeons had lice, wanted to see the catacombs. We missed them. It was disappointing. All of it. My fourth-grade teacher gave me A Tale of Two Cities, struck, I think, by my loneliness, a boy cutting animals out of magazines, talking to no one in particular. I dreamed of France. We went, as friends. For our own good, we must cut out every animal. |
Jomar Daniel Isip’s first collection, Pocketing Feathers, was published by Sadie Girl Press in 2015. His works—including poetry, fiction, and plays— have appeared in many print and online journals including Ethel, Poetry Quarterly, Fences, and Rogue Agent. He is a full-time English professor in Plano, Texas.